MISSOULA — Montana running back Adam Eastwood will forever be the answer to a trivia question about the ending of the 2018 Brawl of the Wild football game.
His fumble on the 1-yard line in the closing seconds not only cost the Griz a win and a potential playoff berth, but it resulted in one of the worst or one of the best finishes — depending on who you ask — in the 118-year history of the heated rivalry between Montana and Montana State.
Even though Eastwood was new to the in-state showdown after transferring from San Diego State, he knew he let down the team and fans in a major way.
But the redshirt sophomore has three more years of eligibility in which he can work to help the team reach new heights and ensure that his legacy will be much more than and much brighter than that single play as he tries to turn hurt into hope.
“It was tough,” Eastwood said after practice last week as he reflected on the play for the first time in an interview. “It’s still tough. I’m my hardest critic. Whatever people said, it doesn’t matter. I'm hardest on myself. They can't say anything that I haven’t already said to myself in my head.
“I wish I could go back and change it. I can’t. It happened. It’s just one play. I’m looking forward to next season.”
The healing process has been a long one for Eastwood. He was initially down on himself. He heard how upset fans were in the hours and days after the game. And the play stuck in his head as he continued to think through what happened.
Then Eastwood finally saw the ending on film. He had scored, and the Griz were possibly going to the playoffs. But Montana State was ruled to have called a timeout. So, the Griz lined up again, handed off the ball to Eastwood, and he was met in the backfield, where he fumbled to end the season.
“I feel it’s just very uncharacteristic of us and me and everything Griz Nation stands for,” Eastwood said of the finish after seeing it on film. “It’s just disappointing.”
Sure, Montana right guard Cy Sirmon got shoved aside quickly after the snap by Cats senior nose tackle Tucker Yates, who then hit Eastwood to force the fumble. But Eastwood doesn’t blame the offensive line or anyone else, saying about the blame that he takes “all of it. That’s my job. Got to protect the football. No excuse.”
The process of recovery continued for Eastwood when he returned to Washington-Grizzly Stadium for the first spring practice on March 11. The feeling of being back on the field was one he described as “tough” and “mixed emotions.”
“It was good to get back out here, clean the slate, put that behind me, move on to the next season,” Eastwood said. “It was tough having that thought in the back of my head all the time. I still think about it. It’s just how it is. It happened.”
Griz quarterback Dalton Sneed, who handed off to Eastwood on the play, got an up-close look at how distraught Eastwood was after the fumble. He’s also seen him start to bounce back.
“It was definitely tough on him,” Sneed said. “No one wants to be in that position. It’s the worst nightmare. I know he’s hungry to get back out here and prove he’s a dominant running back because he’s going to play a lot, and he’s one of our go-to guys. Everybody has faith in him. It happens. But he’s out here, and he wants to get better every day, and he comes to work.”
Eastwood is the lone returning running back who had meaningful reps last season. Montana brought in junior college transfer running back Marcus Knight, and the two of them could headline the young group as they compete for and possibly split reps.
“Depth at that position is probably as critical as any spot on the team,” Montana head coach Bobby Hauck said. “We’ve got to continue to develop that. Obviously, we brought Marcus in here for a reason, and that’s to contribute. I think early signs are he’s going to be able to do that.”
Now 12 practices into spring camp, Eastwood has been working on ball security, making his reads quicker and keeping his balance to stay on his feet when taking contact. Ball security may seem like an obvious area to work on, but Eastwood said making quick reads was “another big focus” because he felt too slow doing that last year.
That hesitancy can be traced back to him playing in a wing T offense in high school where each play called for him to hit a specific hole as hard and fast as he could. Playing in Montana’s zone scheme, he has to read blocks quickly and find the most proper hole to run through.
“It was tough because if you have any indecision, you just get caught in the backfield and the play collapses,” Eastwood said. “It’s definitely a steep learning curve for me. But I already feel like I’m a little bit quicker on my reads and feeling more comfortable with it.”
The path toward redemption continues with the spring game this Saturday in Kalispell. Then it’s nearly four months before fall camp picks up in August, followed by the season opener on Aug. 31 at South Dakota.
As for what Eastwood wants to prove to himself, his team and anyone who watches him play when he returns to the field on game days, it’s pretty simple.
“That I can be the guy,” Eastwood said. “That I can be reliable and be held accountable and not disappoint. That’s what I want to prove.”